Eduard Alan Cemré Bulut

the whole and one reason

2008-09-29T06:01:00.000-07:00

He's been the man I really love
And the one, as well, I fell apart

For not being under a cresent, but a cross
Which is the whole and one reason of my loss

by Eduard Alan Cemré Bulut

But, anyway...

2008-09-10T07:21:00.001-07:00

I am stolen one by one,
For years, I have been stolen
Every single moment takes away a single piece
From my little heart,
My patience gets less and less
Now I am starving for your caress
Now I am thirsty for your warmth,
But, anyway.

I am wounded terribly,
For years, I have been wounded,
Every single hour that elapses between your smile and darkness
Stabs my liver once again
I’m afraid to forget the blissful days
And it’s getting bigger
And it’s getting unbearable
But, anyway.

I 'm plundered and weary,
For years, I have been plundered,
And seconds without you ruins my spirit,
That was once full of you
And my belief gets stronger
Then I find the whim to go on
Then I bind my ties tighter to life
But, anyway.

Eduard Alan Cemré Bulut

the Fall

2008-09-08T04:11:00.000-07:00

The yellow leaves of Autumn will pass
Not through the feet of ours, but mine only
You will be far away, since you have left
And I’ll walk in these streets lonely

I, now, remember the the previous falls
We used to walk through the dry homeless leaves
As they were unconcious and hopeless
The harsh wind is stealing them like the thieves

The gentle autumn rain will not wet
The hands of ours, but mine, my pretty girl
Yet I’ll remember the little drops
Gleaming on your pure skin like a white pearl

Eduard Alan Cemré Bulut

All of a sudden

2008-07-17T01:58:00.000-07:00

Not even a thing do I have
______To make me remind of you
Not even a simple stuff have I had
______To make me think of you

All of a sudden, you came out,
______But you haven’t been indeed
All of a sudden, the things commenced,
______But we haven’t had anything indeed

My reason inquiries me sincerely and secretly
______If I’m getting away of it anyway
My reasons inquires, yet my heart can’t response,
______It’s clear it doesn’t mind the senses

My senses want me to stand behind and hold itself,
______But my heart is willing to challenge
My senses want me to accept there’s a clear line between them,
______No one would like to care each other

There’s no one around me now
______To give me a hand to figure the things out
There’s no one, but who cares the right or wrong,
______As it is somewhat palpable

I’m standing just at the point,
______Where I want to be happy
I’m standing just at the point,
______Where my ration inquiries me as well

The only thing I know is that
______I want to be dragged where my happiness lies
The only thing I cry myself is that
______I want to be kept in the laps of bliss.

Eduard Alan Cemré Bulut

Story of A Drop

2008-05-02T01:33:00.000-07:00

Since I don’t know from where I come
And how I did come into being
No background there’s, yet I need some
As it’s like looking without seeing

I am the one in a million
Appearin’ somewhere hanging high
Just like a Lacedominian
I’m fighting against the blue sky

There’s no land, no way or a route
This blue vastness is not a see
Of width or depth I have no thought
I’m only hovering like a bee

At last I saw in great gaiety
My men were hanging there as well
We became white pile in purity
And also had many things to tell

In time, we grew on all the way
Turned out to be cotton in white
Or a huge soft bed, so to say
A child e’er dreamt of lyin’ in sigh

Then ‘the others’ came, we got dark
And we were contaminated
It ne’er rained but poured, twas real lark
Which means that we were ill-fated

Odin sent his blow and we’re cursed
Never ending blow took us away
The way master wished: as he burst’d
We gave in on such a curs’d day

Dragged to and fro, we’re in exile
E’en without askin’ east or west
After I left my heavenly nest,
Would you, now, like to hear the rest?

Against the Lord, Odin, we hang’d
Yet Zephyrus made us feel cold
‘Twas the lament that Sirens sang
Nothing to wonder, that’s quite bald

My brothers rioted one by one
There broker out a war in the end
Hesitate within me’s all gone
I fought against them with my band

No happiness did the air bring
It was high time we all had gone
To each other we had to cling
And give hand to hand, just to flee

Only for the sake of being free
And of bein’ releas’d o’this exile
With our sincere heart, we call thee
Hope that it’ll never end in futile

‘Great Redeemer, Great Redeemer
Say go ‘head for the land promised
Let us not be a poor dreamer
Yet grant us liberty we’ve missed’

‘Twas the heavenly Lord who heard us
And gave a hand when we’re in need
We all were interwoven thus
He transfigured all, which’s his deed

That’s the miracle of Saviour
To favour and change us at once
We became heavier and heavier
I saw all falling with a glance

Like a feature, we descended
As feely as a bird can be
Some of us’ already landed
Far away: fine or worse, maybe

I see, there, a white cloth beneath
The very place my brothers dwell
It lies everywhere in neat
And far from the abandoned hell

In thick fog, everywhere is vague
Dress’d in an artificial cloth
E’en mountains seemed as though they’re fake
All is the same from north to south

Uncertainty accompanied
We’d no idea where to land
That’s the reason we were worried
During the whole time we have spent

Moreo’er the cold wind also wailed
Then a sudden fall affected
Dragg’d from the very route we have sailed
We sailed as Odin directed

Soon after some time flittering
Finally I landed down safe
Others were all there glittering
And some were still falling in wave

The cold wind left and the sun came
Shining with bright rays all around
A weird feeling grasped: I can’t name
But it says we’ll not stay as mound

Something weird happen'd suddenly
I began to lose my spirit
The dark blanket above, slightly
Mov'd away and still I feel it

The rays of golden ball stroke
Which made me'n my company melt
Soon there appear'd a thick white fog
"An Odyssea's ahead" I felt

The very moment on my mind
I had this queer feeling and thought
I thaw'd with the wind gentle'n kind
Pondering that e'erything is naught

On this endless chall'nging journey
I'm the mere Odysseus
I've set off once 'gain lonely
Having receiv'd the wrath of Zeus

Hard to admit, but this'll go on
On my way, there is no release
If only I'd a'Lord like Solon
The exile would surely cease.

Edward Allan Cemré

Put Them All Aside

2008-05-09T01:56:00.000-07:00

Ye'd better not believe what the others say
Disregard all ye have heard and live the day
No matter what happens
Breathe for the rosy years

The more you mind every attitude and word
The worse ye get, which is not what ye've deserved
So let them be a bird
And fly away in mirth

Remember we don't have to care for everything
We cannot save them all, for awhile, just think
Then release what ye have
That makes ye a real slave

Sometimes we're trying for the impossible
We're not aware, but think we are sensible
Just put the things aside
Think nothing, wrong or right

Tears and cries don't work or make the things better
As it used to, we understand it later
Leave them all in the past
Reckon it as the last

Edward Alan Cemré

Little Had I Thought

2008-05-02T01:26:00.000-07:00

Little had I thought
O' leaving a whole life
Till the very moment
I was left alone

Hard though it is
I try not to retrospect
And re call we had
In the pristine

Edward Alan Cemré

H Q Series

2008-04-18T00:22:00.000-07:00

'Tis georgeous
To see the billows
With Sincere Fellows

All the time
They rise ud and fall
With bewitching call

By the sea
Gazing at the night
Is fine with dim light

In the scene
Honeysuckles smell
And the martins yell

All in all
The fine venial scene
Is one to be seen

Edward Alan Cemré

Welcoming Spring

2008-04-11T00:08:00.000-07:00

Following the harsh and chilly winter
In time, cold blanket on hills withdrew
The foliage's colour'd by Lord the Painter
Days after the wind strongly blew

Only the tops of hills remain white
As a holy relic of the past
There they stay like a triumphant knight
Yet, that's not sure how long it shall last

From time to time, so fierce is the wind
That it caresses e'erything around
The green cover's ready, yet the ants ain't
To come out and enjoy nature's sound

All of a sudden comes a downpour
Accompanied with the giant rainbow
Following the gloomy sky's fierce roar
That's not as cruel as it sounds though

Tiny buds of blooms hath come out
In the midst with small pretty freckles
There smells the fragnant odour about
This makes 'em unique despite prickles

Witnessing the birth of heaps of leaves
Gives the greatest joy a man can see
'Tis good to see nature really lives
Observing the vast green that's once wee

So tall and high are the poplar trees
That're adorned in things like centipede
In jealousy, they are bent by the breeze
Yet cared and dampen'd with every bead

The bushes all around are braver
As they've hasted to let their leaves grow
In changing weather, they endevour
To get dressed in green gown and to blow

The little clouds chase one another
In joyi they play an unending game
Continuously they go e'en farther
That's nature, nothing remains the same

Edward Alan Cemré

The Hope Within the Box

2007-12-04T09:00:00.000-08:00

Even if we are far away,
We shall see the same stars shining without ceasing
We shall gaze at the same sky uphigh
Which shall be the things we have in common.

Even if we do not have any contact
We shall meet in the same dreams anytime, anywhere
We shall keep the same hopes together
Which shall be the basis we cling to more tightly.

Even if we do not see each other
We shall think of the same future, we get ready for
We shall desire the same merry days ahead
Which shall be granted to us in the end anyway.

Edward Allan Cemré

Alecto, Tisiphone and Magaera

2007-12-04T09:03:00.000-08:00

Alecto hath decideth
Tisiphone hath let it happen
Magaera hath concluded

The whole and the mere thing we could do was
to give in and to wait for the next,
We’ve been given no right to have a say.
The sirens’re singin’ the ballad I hath spelleth
Enchanting the mankind with my hopeless words
Thou hast not hearth the mere plead of mine
But kept on thy fair judgement.
Now all scattered around
And torn into thousands of pieces
I can’t help askin’ for my love
That I’ve tried to keep within me.

Edward Allan Cemré

My love for you

2007-12-04T09:07:00.001-08:00

The time seems endless, and it gets longer
Considering I’ll hear your voice
Yet it yields against my patience and elapses in a way
The nights get darker and darker
It makes you feel lost in a jungle of stars
And I might not figure my way out
Yet it’s invaded by the rising sun and cleared away in the end.
The days ahead seem discouraging
And it tries to dissuade you of the promises
You swore once in the name of Lord
Yet it comes to a halt, like a hearing brought up o a court
And passes slowly as it did and will as ususal.
My love for you gets more and more inexplicable
I cannot find a way to start to make it clearer
It feels huge like a sincere hug
And deeper, thus I’m fallin’ into you.

Edward Allan Cemré

Poem numbered ...

2008-03-07T00:52:00.000-08:00

Never have I had any thing
To make me remind you’n yer smile
Except a piece of song to sing
Written for a lo’er still alive
Could this be the thing we hoped once
Following the days we enjoyed and danced
I can’t help, just now, my heart pounds
With thy love even after months
Bearing in mind a confessed hope
I’ll wait for thee and I’m en route
Moreover I keep the things we thought
They’re all with e, except those you loathe
What we need’s waiting a little bit
Then our love’ll rekindle, indeed.

Edward Allan Cemré

But For Thee

2008-03-07T00:51:00.000-08:00

But for thee,
I don’t want to bee the moon hanging uphigh
Yet the reflection in depths.
I don’t want to enlighten the nights
Yet kept within the water alone
With my congenial fiend the second, me!

But for thy love,
I’d rather stay in the sparkles of water
Instead of spotting the endless night
And then disappear in day
As if disguising for the fear of Helios.

But for my hopes,
I’d be an arid land, lacking of tiny drops of desire to breathe
Or a piece of rock, having not been a whole
but dragged away
Without questioning where to travel.

Edward Allan Cemré

Without Any Trace

2008-03-07T01:06:00.000-08:00

Upon walking without leaving any trace on the snow,
Covering everywhere with white purity
I shall quit pursuing your love up.

Like the tomb of Lord,
There shall lie nothing except for the memories
However, they are sure there’ll stand no comebacks.

Edward Allan Cemré

Hatred

2008-03-07T01:14:00.001-08:00

Has your soul been filled up
With the feeling to get away from all mankind
And to leave everything behind as soon as possible
With a pure hatred

My hatred grew and still has…
Fed up with all I do wish:
I were away anywhere!

So as not to see an evil in body and flesh
Not to feel the presence of a breath nearby.

Edward Allan Cemré

Mesmerized In A Great Desperate Mood

2008-03-07T02:15:00.001-08:00

Mesmerized in a great desperate mood,
I hath miss’d thee,
And thought o’ thee with my whole heart,
On the slopes of Ararat,
I hath a challenge
To keep thy eternal flame
Within me while ye’re away
In spite of the frost!
Just a memory of yer glimpse
Was enough to keep my future and hopes alive,
Even when the tiny dust and huge rocks around yielded
Against the Zephyrus the Freezing
Covered with a purity,
All turn’d out to be still
Yet the love within me
Kept my soul full o’ breath and joy
Though everything was on their last legs.

Edward Allan Cemré

Kept in Safety

2008-03-07T02:18:00.000-08:00

Kept in safety,
Everything was in all right behind the walls
Then we’re sent from heaven
And saw the glittering o’ life
Beginning to grow up, we all changed,
Without noticing got mature in time
Never has been and will be the same again
And now, before a Sphinx
I’m questioning her, unlike the king once-lived
Gazing around, I see a snowflake descending
Gently,
Slowly,
And in perfect order
With an incredible beauty and heavenly form
As if they had not touched anywhere
And it had not been stained
Purity is hidden in every single crystal.
Yes, they’re leaving the cotton clouds
Wandering without ceasing
And they’re landing to and fro,
A new life in every piece has just started herein.
Yet the case is with the rest,
I’m now asking to Sphinx:
Shall they ever be the same again?

Edward Allan Cemré

Brighter Stars

2008-03-07T02:19:00.001-08:00

Never hath shone the stars brighter before
And never hath they been so closer
Diving among the glittering stones
I feel the depths of vast oceans
And the blue o’ uncertainty

Since the lights of cities are away

Edward Allan Cemré

Pray

2008-03-07T02:21:00.000-08:00

Before the sanctuary,
I kneel down to pray at my pew
Thinking of repentance
I tried to recollect my days on true path
that is rather few.

Edward Allan Cemré

Lyrics of My song!

2008-03-07T02:22:00.000-08:00

Art thou lookin’ for the things?
That we are all waitin’ for!

Come over, Come over!
Then take my soul away
Come over, Come over!
Renew the cast and play

Edward Allan Cemré

Oleanders

2007-12-03T15:09:00.000-08:00

Forgotten my youth on jolly days
On which the oleanders used to burst into flowers
Among the lurid blossoms, getting groggy in the sun

Recollect the things ye used to say in each case
And the golden beach teeming with the lovers
Where we ran, wandered and enjoyed, once, in fun

Recall the moments I looked at yer face
And when we got all wet with the summer showers
But now, all alone myself, there’s left none.

I Hear a Call

2007-12-03T15:07:00.000-08:00

I hear a call,
Uttering what I’ve already heard before,
Not something new
But like a prayer spelled in a pew
Neither pious nor trivial
Or something to veil,

I hear a call,
Telling what we’ve already been told for ages,
Not something weird
But like the sayings with which we’re reared
Neither misleading nor concrete
Or something to plead…

I hear a call,
Of which we’re sure and learnt by heart,
Not something unusual
But like a like our parents’ advice that’s crucial
Neither ill intended nor obscure
Or something to endure.

Love is Craziness

2007-11-15T10:44:00.000-08:00

Long long centuries ago, when the Earth was not created,
And when Adam and Eve weren’t breathed life, and mated
There strolled and wandered ill- and good-will emotions
Without having, in their mind, any bona fide or bad notion.
Once again together, on an ordinary day, spending time,
“Purity” put forward an idea, spelled in splendid rhyme.
- Instead o’ killin’ time, what about playin’ hide and seek?
Which was welcomed by all emotions, strong and weak.
At that very moment, of those, craziness screamed loudly,
That he is quite willing to be the seeker in game eagerly.
Since no one else was crazy enough to seek for Craziness,
They just hid, and didn’t poke their nose into his business,
Then he spoke up to tell countdown: sixty five, sixty four …
The emotions got excited in hiding to and fro more ‘n more.
Initially, “Tenderness” got hung at the horn o’ the moon,
And Treason, cleverly, got into a pile o’ litter secretly soon,
As for the Love, he curled among the clouds on and on,
The Lie said he was going to hid himself under a stone,
Yet he lied, since he got indeed at the bottom of a lake,
The Passion descended to the centre of the world, in vague,
And the Craziness kept on his countdown: eight, seven…
The Love could not find anywhere on Earth and heaven.
Being indecisive, the Love did not know where to hide,
Which is not surprising, for it is hard to keep it aside,
Upon pronouncing, in the end: five, four, three, two, one,
Love jumped into the red roses, accompanied by Pan,
Shriekin’ in enthusiasm, Craziness announced it’s over
And he would not fail in finding them, never and never
Turning his back, there he saw Listlessness before him,
Since, to hide himself, he did not have even a bit whim,
He found the Tenderness at the horn of the moon uphigh,
And the Treason among the litter with an inept outcry,
One by one, Love was found curled among the clouds,
And the Lie at the bottom of a lake, drab with floods,
The Passion was found at the centre of the world hidden
And Craziness fell into hopelessness that shan’t deaden,
When he’s unable to reveal the last, despite his effort,
Then the increasing voice of the Jealousy was heard,
- Well, ye hath not! He’s hidden there among the roses,
The Craziness then promptly grabbed a fork-like stick
And rushed into the roses right over to tease and kick
Frustrated and in bad temper, he stabbed and stabbed
Until he heard of a shriek in great pain, he just kept
Then Love came out covering his face with his hands
Raised his head with stabbed eyes in blood to friends
In order to find Love, Craziness blinded Love’s eyes
He completed his crazy pursuit with unforgettable cries
- “What hath I caused” bawled he realizing what he did,
And in sincere attitude, he asked Love’s need to meet,
Upon this kind proposal of Craziness, then, Love replied so
Irreversible are my eyes, could you be my guide and light
Both eyes o’ Love have been blind unfortunately since then
And Craziness have accompanied him as much as he can…

2007-11-15T10:34:00.000-08:00

Procrastinating the glamour in yer eyes,
And the laughter, lying behind thy lies,
There’s no point in bringing up the past
It’s now wiser to come to an end at last,
But can it ever be a remedy in all cases,
For a broken heart, fixing all the pieces,
Don’t think it’ll work, given the perhaps,
That makes it difficult to bridge the gaps
Considerin’ all left from yesterday for us,
We have incomplete drawings on canvas
We could not have time to make it whole
As we disguised in an inconvenient role.